If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it. - Mary Engelbreit.
You don't have to be 500, 400, 300, 200, or even 100 pounds to feel bad about yourself. I have met many people who range from all sizes who think they're "fat." It would shock you.
If I thought they would let me, I would put pictures of all my gorgeous friends and tell you their insecurities. The most beautiful people have told me they don't like their ears, nose, cheeks, chin, butt, belly, arm fat, thighs, calves, and even toes.
As for myself, I look in the mirror and see a belly. Wii fit is a few pounds away from telling me I am overweight. I am highly insecure and always have been. I am 5'1" and Wii just told me I weigh 128. This stinks especially since I just read a forum of girls that are the same height weighing as much as 40 lbs less. I know it is shallow to talk about myself in comparison to so many other people, but I think it is good to hear that even a "little" person has issues with her self image.
At church on Sunday, I listened to the Pastor speak on dangers of comparisons and realized girls do that a ton. One time I had a girl friend tell me that even though I had a bigger butt, she had a smaller stomach. I didn't like that comment one bit. Why put me down? Were you trying to make yourself feel better? Did it work?
While on the subject of put downs, let me tell you a story of my life. When I was in high school, I weighed 105. I ran track, and was extremely fit. Still I got made fun of for my "big" butt. In fact, someone made up a song about it. It went like this...Big Butt, Big Butt, BigButtBigButtBigButt, Big Butt, Big Butt, BIGBUTTBIGBUTTBIGBUTT.
I don't like my belly so I am going to change it. I post this not to get sympathy or encouragement, but to get accountability. I asked Wii fit to give me six months and I will be at 22% body fat. That means that by August I will have lost an average of half a pound a week. That is completely doable. And now that I have posted this for all the world to see, I will have no choice but to finish what I've started.
It is one thing to say this, but I need get specific. How do I get there? What specific attainable goals can I set to help me with this journey?
1. Watch what I eat (And avoid eating out)
2. Watch what I drink
3. Exercise three times a week (Sooo doable)
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I did the same kind of thing this month. I tried cutting out fast food and exercising 3-4 times a week. It has really helped already. If nothing else I don't feel as squishy.
I think it's really hard when you start out as tiny (as we both did). You get used to it. So although 128 lbs is not huge, it feels huge when you are used to being a different way. I soooo understand!
So finding the balance between insecurity (Have you read Beth Moore's latest? I loved it!) and changing what needs changed is hard. Blah. The ongoing battle...
I think I know what book I'm reading next. Thanks Casey you rock!
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